“We have started a new book. 12 new chapters and 365 new pages to make a difference, who will you be?”
The past few years have been rough. Like wow. Mental health wise, life wise, everything. It has been a constant uphill battle and I have felt that I have been swimming against the current. (It brings Just Keep Swimming to a whole new level) Well, this year will be different.
Since my hospital stay I have been finding myself changing pretty rapidly. In a really good way. My confidence is up, I have been making decisions based on what I want and not other people tell me I should do. My self -image has never been better. (This is HUGE) I have lost friendships, which was really difficult, but it turns out that it was for the best. (Bye, Bye negativity.) I have honestly never felt better in my life. I plan on keeping it this way, and I have instituted the following motto for 2019, borrowed from a very good friend:
Zero Fucks Given.
Boom. That’s it. No expectations. I am going to live life everyday, and not worry about what other people think. I am going to be me, and if someone doesn’t like it, they can move on. I am going to sing, like I am the best singer in the world. I have the voice but not the confidence. Not anymore. I am going to write everyday and not care if everyone will like it or not. I am not going to be everyone’s cup of tea, and I am going to finally accept that’s ok. I am me, and I am awesome.
I am going to date without needed to pour myself into a relationship status. Who has time for that? I am going to have fun, and be me. Meet some great people, have great experiences, and love. Not the happily ever after love, but the you are important to me, and I care about you love. I am going to tell people I love them, and often. I am going to speak my mind and see what happens. Things could get interesting. We shall see.
I am looking forward to 2019 with an open heart and an open mind. This is going to be my year, I can feel it!
I challenge you to find your motto for 2019 and live it everyday. Let’s do this!